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Me, age two...

Year: 1979...

The years of political disorder and almost chaos, in Turkey...

The time, when a nation did not know by whom it is represented...

The time period, when thousands are murdered, because of the accusitions towards them, for being "separatists", socialists, "communists"...

The years, when people had been killed, when they'd wanted their rights...

The years, when everybody was poor...

The years, when Justin Timberlake and I-Pod would mean nothing, even if they existed...

The years, in which you would fear death, when you only "thought" of pure independence of idealism...

The years, when my parents were 29 years old...

They were younger than me today, in those days...

My father had socialist thoughts and was an accountant, my mother, a primary school teacher... Every time he'd buy a socialism oriented newspaper, she would fear for the future of me...

Fuel-oil was scarce those days, so was bread, so was butter, so was money... Many cold days and nights, they had nothing but their will to live on, to warm up, cuddling with their little son, sleeping between them...

They would never want me to be sick, even not-scary ones, necessary ones, for they didn't have the money to pay for the medicine...

But I had scarlatina (scarlet fever)... And they gave almost all of what they earned in a month, for my medicine...

Never thinking of themselves, never thinking of anything else, but my health...

Scarlatina scorched me for two weeks... And I came close to death many times, in that time period...

My mother had to go to the school, to teach, my father had to go to his "gods"...


But they didn't, they stayed with me... They got penalties, salary cuts...

Cutting a sum of money, which would already mean nothing, even if given in full...

They were younger than me today, in those days...

* * *

Days had passed...

And I was cured...

This is a photograph, taken by my father, in the first day, I could barely, walk...

I am looking and pointing at a weekly politically satiric cartoon magazine, "Girgir", well known, in our country...

And this was only one of the many years, lived with fear, anxiety, poverty and fury...

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Now, Turkey has changed... We live with I-Pod, fiber-optic Internet, Cadillacs, Clubs, plenty of food, plenty of fuel, plenty of everything...

I, am the Member Of The Board of a Credit Rating Agency.. My father is a well known Sworn Financial Advisor, my mother is a retired primary school teacher and an artist, a painter...

The reason "I", "Can", now... Is the reason "They", "Could", in the past...

That's why I sacrifice for them, anytime I Can...

That's why I Can't say "No" to their requests, wishes...

That's one of the reasons why I love them...

But that is not the only reason why I smile, when I look up into the sky...

Not only because I have good parents,

but also because I still live...

For I know, that is for a purpose...

For I know, I will do something special, some day...

For I know, that life, is a gift, given to you, on purpose, from day one; which, will never lose its importance...

Even if you throw it in a pool of mud...

But everyday you live, is a part of a countdown...

28 years have passed, since this photo had been taken...

What have I done, all that time?

Have I helped sufficiently? Have I loved sufficiently? Have I cried, sufficiently?

Have I, lived, sufficiently?

Have I deserved; even that single reward of many, that life gave me, decades ago?

I hope I did...

I hope you did...

If not; I hope we will, some day...

* * *

Love y'all,

I. Can

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Photo taken by my father, 11th of February, 1979, Sunday...

Kucukyali, Istanbul, Turkey...

Edited by me...

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verloreneseele's avatar
beautiful retro style!